Ok I just had a major meltdown.
Some things are just really getting to me right now and the pressure is just building up. I just want to HURT someone (A specific someone actually, so the rest of you can come out of hiding now 
). I’m sitting here gnashing my teeth and imagining the horrors I could inflict on someone if I were a Nazi or Japanese WW2 soldier high on some unknown drug - take your pick depending on which part of the world you’re in.
Yes I’ve reached that stage where all I see is RED. I mean, don’t keep pushing people, right. One day, when people push back, you aren’t going to like it. And when an angry person pushes back, you really will not like it one bit for that angry person might just push you right over the edge of the waterfall and then, laugh while you fall down and bounce off the rocks.
I was thisclose to putting a curse on the evil that pollutes my existence, but sis warned me that its bad karma to curse people. I mean I know that. But some people just get under your skin and make you so mad that…. I don’t know… You just want to watch them writhe under a pin the way a cockroach writhes when you pin it to a piece of cardboard (not that I will go near the foul things!) You just want to see them SUFFER and not be able to do a thing about it!! (cue manic laughter, thunder and lightning, silhouette of tumbled down castle on a hill…)
You know the saying “Don’t get mad, get even”? I’m trying to live by it. I really am. But sometimes, its just so hard……
p/s I can personally vouch for the waterproof qualities of Lancome Flextencils mascara - no smudgies! 
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I get this type of feeling quite often and the person lives with me. Not my wife lah…the maid!
But it is part of life’s testing that we go through. At the end of the day, God will see how we react to testing and whether we pass with flying colours in not retaliating an eye for an eye.
Maturity shows in moments like this.
Breath in deep, say YATTTTAAAAA, relax, and think of all the wonderful friends you have instead… Life is too short to blow it on the baddies… Hahaha, easy to say, huh? Yeah, I know. I wish I could pour all that lava over certain people too, but then I’d just burn myself as well..
Aiks! A mighty fierce and loud post. (cue terrified whisperings and scampering steps way way waaay back of the hall).
Try not to bang tables, slam doors or throw paper punchers. Might break a nail.
Yop…hope you’re feeling better now. I know he’s a great big fat pain but do the savasana and tell yourself you’re tonnes better than him and in a much much better position too!
And I’m sure he’s doing all these stupid stuff cos he’s envious and jealous of you.
Glad your sister helped. Revenge is a waste of time. Better to create distance. Build walls. Block pertinent phone numbers.
Do something nice for yourself.
Pablo: Trying hard to be mature … really trying…
LB: Yeah easier said than done, but better than busting a blood vessel I guess
Tummythoz: LOL… I did slam a few tables, but luckily my nails are kept short
Pinkelle: hehe… yalor that’s what I keep telling myself. Idiot.
Simple American: Thank you. My wall is so high its like the Great Wall of China!
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